Kiki’s Big Dream Experiment - Week 9 - Completion
Week 9 of Kiki’s Big Dream Experiment
Hey Dreamer,
We are well on the way towards the New Year, which feels crazy!
Thank you for joining me this week as I close out Week 9 of Kiki’s Big Dream Experiment. My theme this week was Completion - and I must say, it came at the right time! As all of my themes do.
Being near the end of Kiki’s Big Dream Experiment has brought up questions of what I will be doing next. I am a planner, and so I like to have a rough idea of what comes after my current project. I had spent a lot of last week trying to plan that - and I realised that it was eating into my current experiment. That is not how I want these experiments to go.
I decided that I am going to have a break between experiments. That will give me time to both fully indulge in Kiki’s Big Dream Experiment until the very end, and it will give me time to plan my next experiment with the time and attention it deserves.
In a way, this theme of Completion set me on the wrong road, but it was in going down the wrong road that I realised what is important to me. That is truly the gift of taking informed action and reassessing goals each week.
Here’s this week’s content:
Mon · 1st Dec:
Podcast Episode on Spotify - Episode 9 - Completion - The next episode of my podcast, where I talk about the theme of Completion and how it is a vast topic to explore
Tue · 2nd Dec:
Newsletter on LinkedIn - The Trap of Completion · December 2nd, 2025 - My discussion on what it means to feel like something is complete.
Wed · 3rd Dec:
Stream on Twitch - KBDE 💥 Borderlands 4 - Part 9.1 - Part 1 of Week 9’s Borderlands 4 stream, which included some discussion of the weekly theme alongside gameplay
Stream on Twitch - KBDE 💥 Borderlands 4 - Part 9.2 - Part 2 of Week 9’s Borderlands 4 stream, which included some discussion of the weekly theme alongside gameplay
Video on YouTube - KBDE 💥 Borderlands 4 - Part 9.1 - A recording of my Twitch livestream of Borderlands 4
Video on YouTube - KBDE 💥 Borderlands 4 - Part 9.2 - A recording of my Twitch livestream of Borderlands 4
Board on Pinterest - KBDE - Week 9 - Completion - A collection of pins linked to my content for Week 9
Thu · 4th Dec:
Live on TikTok - KBDE #9 - Completion - A personal and interactive discussion of the topic of Completion
Video on YouTube - Kiki's Big Dream Experiment - TikTok Live - Episode 9 - Completion - A recording of my TikTok Live on the theme of Completion
Post on Substack - The Cycle of Completion - This week’s piece covers how Completion is a cyclical act, and it is important to build start and end points into your dream chasing
Fri · 5th Dec:
Post on Instagram - The Completeness of Zero - My poem sharing the concept of zero being about wholeness
Sun · 7th Dec:
Blog on my Website - Kiki’s Big Dream Experiment - Week 9 - Completion - My wrap-up post for the week
Reflection on Week 9
The Feeling of Completion
It is essential to feel like you are making forward progress as you move through life. Time is moving, and if we don’t feel like we are moving with it, we can feel stuck. Everything is constantly changing. Nobody likes to feel like they are left behind - I don’t anyway!
This is why having dreams is important. Dreams are the things that keep you moving. They are the desires that give you a reason to get up in the morning. It can be very difficult to even know if you are on the right path towards your dreams. My best piece of advice is to build your self-trust. Your intuition knows you better than you do, so trust it. You may wish to have your dreams come true immediately, but the universe only delivers when you are capable of handling them.
My big dreams over the past few months have felt hard to truly explain. I’ve felt that my attempts to share them have not done the dreams justice. So I have become more selective about how I share them. My three big dreams have been: to make meaning of my time, to find my voice, and to tell my story.
How I’ve described these before is: build a business, create content, and write a book. These very material explanations of the dreams don’t feel complete to me. I know that what I’m putting into them is far more. I know these descriptions have felt close to the ballpark of the dreams, but incomplete.
That’s the important part to recognise - the feeling of completion. It shows up in every task that gets ticked off, every project that comes to an end, and every conversation that feels true. That same feeling tells me how far along the journey I am towards the dream. That feeling is indescribable. I can only feel that it is right.
The Expectations of Completion
The world has turned into a huge machine of transactions. Everything we are expected to do is transactional. Working to earn money is transactional. Spending that money to live is transactional. It is exactly that mentality that reduces people to numbers on someone’s spreadsheet. Money does not define a person’s value. Capitalism says it does - that’s the dangerous part.
When value is measured by speed and quantity, it ignores impact and quality. Impact and quality provide value over time, and this is often overlooked. It certainly is difficult to measure the value over time - perhaps that is why they are overlooked.
We place expectations on others all of the time. This might show up in the workplace when you’re trying to complete projects. It might show up at home in the way that chores are distributed. It even shows up in our social life as we follow social etiquette and place unspoken expectations on other people.
Just as we put unrealistic expectations onto others, we have unrealistic expectations thrust upon us. It is therefore important to strike a balance between what is expected of you, and what you can deliver. It is unrealistic - for example - to give 110% at your work all of the time. We need balance. We need to follow the ebb and flow of life. I noticed this myself this week as I had set my own goals according to the speed and expectations I was used to in the workplace - but it felt constricting.
It is for this reason that I decided to give myself space between experiments. It removes the pressure of having to plan 90 days ahead while I’m still working on my current goals. Yes, I set these expectations for myself originally, which is why I can change them. But even that discussion with myself felt difficult. It would mean I can only complete 3 experiments per year instead of 4. But doing 4 a year would certainly lead to burnout because I was doing that for 10 years and wound up burnt out.
By introducing this space, I am still able to work during the downtime, but the kind of work changes in such a way that it becomes sustainable in the long term. It is this mentality that is important to keep in mind when balancing external expectations of your money, time, and energy.
The Creativity of Completion
We are controllers of our own lives. It may not feel like that a lot of the time because the first 20 years of life tend to feel entirely restricted by what other people make us do. Once you become an independent adult, all of that can change. It may take a lot of work to change it, but it is possible. You don’t have to follow anybody else’s expectations anymore. You can choose what to give your time and energy to.
I created Kiki Dreams Big based on a dream I could not fully articulate. I just asked for time and trust. I have found that creating goals for myself to test what I enjoy has been incredibly freeing. It has revitalised my trust in myself. I feel far more comfortable taking on bigger and better projects. This was only possible by integrating storytelling into my life in a more intentional way.
My biggest enemy has been procrastination. Feeling like a task is insurmountable is paralyzing. Yes, there is a way to break big tasks down into smaller ones. It is not always clear how to do that, though. For example, when it comes to finding my voice, I had no idea where I could start. I had to start with what I knew - which felt like very little. I began that journey by creating a 30-Day Video Challenge on TikTok.
My task was to speak on camera for 1 minute per day. That’s all. After 30 days, the challenge was complete. I only had to really tackle one video at a time. A 1-minute video is such a small task in a day that it was certainly achievable. The perspective helps. Seeing it as a 1-minute video per day felt far more achievable than creating 30 videos. Time is a fantastic ally in this way. Spread out your tasks, and they feel far more accessible to you.
Each day that passed, I completed my video. As the month of June progressed, I noticed I was getting closer to my goal of 30 without much extra effort. It’s because I had broken this complicated dream down to one task, and that one task into 30 smaller ones.
Once you get to the end result in the timeframe that suits you, the journey doesn’t really matter. So why not make it as easy as you can for yourself and be creative about it!
Takeaways from Week 9
My takeaways for Week 9 are as follows:
Completion is a cycle: When you zoom in on every detail of life, you start to notice that everything has a beginning and an end. The end of one task or goal gives you space to take on a new task or goal. Thus, the cycle begins again. Taking advantage of this fact, you can break things down smaller and smaller until they become accessible to you.
The important definition of complete is personal: Your definition of complete is important because it is how you measure your success. Your success might be aiming for 70% in an exam, it might be 100%, or it might be just to pass. All of these are valid options. None of us is perfect. We can only do our best. Stop creating goals for yourself just because your friend, neighbour, or colleague is able to achieve those results in a certain way. We are on our own journeys, and we should set things up for our own successes.
Completion requires affirmation: It is important to acknowledge when something ends or is complete. That affirmation allows you to find closure on those efforts and free up valuable capacity to move on to new tasks. Consider this tip - complete what you can, and create a new task to address the finer details. Write your assignment and tick that box. But tomorrow, read back over it and make notes for improvements. The next day, incorporate those edits. Those are 3 different tasks that build upon each other and contribute to the best output you can muster.
Completion deserves pause and celebration: The journey to the end is often perilous in some way. Our doubts can take over when things get difficult. It is therefore important to celebrate your successes as you meet them. A small acknowledgement is usually enough. Look back upon your journey with kindness and gratitude - it does wonders for your mental health and motivation.
You can create your own motivation using completion: We find motivation using experiences from the past as evidence to show we are capable. We are wired for survival, and if a task feels too big to take on, we likely won’t even try. Having support around you to give you safety makes a huge difference. Breaking tasks down into known quantities is a way you can create safety for yourself. Get the cycle rolling with baby steps, and let it snowball!
Introducing Week 10 of Kiki’s Big Dream Experiment
Dream for Week 10:
I have given myself space to fully focus on Kiki’s Big Dream Experiment by scheduling time between experiments. I want to use this safety to refocus my efforts on my current goals. My future dreams are still present, but I know that closing out this experiment to the best of my ability will contribute to those future goals.
For Week 10, I am dreaming about working on my 9th content piece. I have figured out what that will look like - but the support I need is guidance to follow through on that plan. I want to be strategic with these final weeks. I want to embody the Creation flow and plan out just how I expect to finish Kiki’s Big Dream Experiment so that I can be proud of my efforts.
Theme for Week 10:
While focusing on the takeaways from Week 9, and my dream for Week 10, I shuffled my tarot deck. Once I felt ready, I stopped and drew…
13 Death
Closure, Transformation
No one loves the sight of the Death card in a reading.
We spend most of our lives denying death altogether…so when this card appears, it’s easy to get frightened or think it’s “bad”.
Don’t let the drama distract you from the message: something in your life needs to end.
It needs closure.
This will happen voluntarily or involuntarily.
Either way, you will feel a positive transformation begin after the initial forms of suffering have passed.
Death gets a bad rap, but once you embrace the symbolic energy of death, your life gets so much bigger. The Death card represents the ending of an old way of life and the beginning of a new one. It can refer to a form of rebirth. Everything in life is changing constantly - we just don’t notice it because it happens so slowly. I am excited to explore the theme of Transformation this coming week. Kiki Dreams Big is all about transformation.
In order to follow your dreams, you have to tear down your old life in some way to make room for the new life to form. Just as a caterpillar disintegrates inside a chrysalis and emerges as a butterfly, we all go through moments in life that change us - hopefully for the better. The perception you have of this change makes all the difference. You can let life end, or you can be grateful for the new journey ahead of you.
Life goes on. Death is inevitable. But just because things end doesn’t mean we can’t find love, happiness, and peace amongst the time we have on Earth.
Keep dreaming,
Kiki <3
